Remember back when you were growing up, and you’d get in a bad mood, and your mom would say “You need to check that attitude, mister!”
Or if it was dad, he might just say ” time for a ‘tude check!”
And if you continued to gripe and stomp your feet in a perfectly justifiable response to the injustice being focused in your general direction, you’d be sent to the corner for 5 minutes to ‘think about it.’
I think I could use someone to send me to the corner every now and then, even though I’m 26.
Today, I needed a ‘tude check.
So this past week, I sent out a few emails to some contacts/friends I have at a few churches, offering my services for speaking/teaching young adults. It’s something I’m very passionate about, namely, helping young people deal with doubt, and come to understand their faith on a deeper level. I’ve been wanting to get into speaking for young audiences for a while, and have been slowly building my resume over the years to help me get there. Not to brag or anything–ok, maybe just a little, after all, I am a part of generation ME (!)–but I’d say the ol’ resume has shaped up nicely. I’ve got a BA in Philosophy from a well known university (UWO) and a Masters degree from Regent College, one of the top 3-4 theological colleges in the world.
During my time at Regent, I wrote a book––a guide to keeping the faith as a 20something––and have recently self-published it. I’ve made friends with some very talented and hard working folks with big platforms; guys like apologist John Stackhouse, author Andy Crouch, musician Shad K, and blogger/former publishing house president Michael Hyatt, who’ve all recommended my stuff to the general public.
And the only speaking gig I’ve had in the last year was one I organized myself.
I guess its the same ol’ problem I had when I was five:
why won’t anybody pay attention to me???
The other day, I sent out a few emails, and got back…. well, pretty much nada. Mostly just ‘Sorry, we’re all booked up’ or ‘I don’t know if you’re right for us’ or ‘can we meet for coffee and discuss the possibility? how’s 3 months from now?’
Gotta admit, I felt like throwing a tantrum in God’s general direction.
“God, I worked so hard for so long in the library, really put my thoughts and energy and passion towards something I thought you were pushing me towards, and now I’m ready, so where are all the open doors?”
The trouble is, God sees through me, like mom used to do. “You need an attitude check, Sam,” He says.
Even though it may feel rational to me to get upset, I know that deep down, it’s really the same problem we all had as kids: a case of the ol’ bruised ego. I might have lots of so called ‘knowledge,’ but I still have lots of growing up to do. Because to God, the prerequisites for getting open doors aren’t fancy degrees or glowing references. The foremost prerequisite is having your heart in the right place.
I remember this story I heard a while ago, about a guy like myself, who wanted to be invited to preach at his church on Sundays. You know what God said to him?
“Clean the toilets.”
So he did. He cleaned toilets. He volunteered. He showed the people in the community that he knew how to serve, that serving was his first priority. This showed them that his heart was in the right place. Then he was given other duties, and eventually was invited to talk to the youth, and finally, to preach on Sunday.
So maybe I need to find some toilets to clean, or other ways to serve, to make sure that my heart is in the right place before I’ll be ready to be trusted with teaching a church’s youth. In fact, maybe I should put that on my resume, right at the top.
“Cleans a mean toilet!”
So hey, you! youth leader or young adult pastor! Need some toilets cleaned? I’m your man!
p.s. If you’d like me to speak afterwards, here’s a sample of what that might be like.



In the past few years, there’s been an epidemic of sorts amongst Christians–especially young(ish) Christians–who’ve been leaving the Church.



